BUT I DIGRETCH
A novel by Gretchen Astro Turner
When the truth finally breaks through the silence, everything once believed begins to unravel and reassemble in unexpected beauty.
Love is a wavy lullaby sung through broken stained glass;
Love is the sum of all our tries, the futures of hopes bypassed;
Love is what catches up to us when the moment went too fast;
Love is a sunrise dewdrop on a lonely blade of grass…
In But I Digretch, Gretchen Astro Turner explores the human interior with figurative, tactile prose where surreal humor, tenderness, longing, and beauty coexist with life’s raw indifference and harrowing brutality. These stories wander through obsession and wonder, grief and grace, torturous tragedy and mystical redemption, inviting readers into a world where even impermanence shimmers with hope and meaning.
Here, darkness is never the destination, it is the doorway through which love, imagination, and resilience are revealed.
But I Digretch is Gretchen Astro’s debut collection of 13 short stories, with a 4.96 (out of 5.0) rating on Goodreads, and it has already begun circulating through creative and literary communities, including the Manhattan Book Club, which recently produced a Netflix-aligned video teaser for the book, an early glimpse into the cinematic potential of her work. She has been featured on Classic FM (the “UK’s largest national commercial classical radio music station”) and New York City’s Z100, a premier iHeartMedia station, and “iconic, most successful radio station in history,” according to Rotten Tomatoes. She will join Penguin Random House in their Executive Series conversations on February 21, 2026.
Gretchen’s storytelling reverberates with readers who crave emotional resonance, insightful humor, and a compassionate examination of what it means to be human.
About the Author
Gretchen Astro Turner
Gretchen Astro Turner is a fiction writer whose work explores the quiet mysteries beneath everyday life, those luminous moments when truth, vulnerability, and transformation gently surface. Her stories move through the unseen emotional currents that shape us, revealing beauty in places we might otherwise overlook.
Her writing is rooted in character-driven narratives that invite readers into intimate inner worlds, where sorrow and wonder, fragility and courage, coexist. With a thoughtful, witty, poetic voice, Gretchen encourages readers to slow down, to feel deeply, and to rediscover the quiet magic threaded through human experience.
But I Digretch offers a series of evocative short stories that linger not in darkness, but beneath the surface, opening space for reflection, connection, and the enduring presence of love, long after the final page.
Her Writing & Vision
Gretchen is a contemporary fiction and poetry writer whose work explores the quiet mysteries beneath everyday life, those luminous, liminal moments when truth, tenderness, and transformation gently surface. Her stories move through loss and change, yet are always guided by an undercurrent of wonder, magic, beauty, and hope.
Her writing is character-driven and reflective. Across her body of writing, Gretchen returns to a central question: How do we transform, again and again, through love, and learn to recognize the extraordinary within the ordinary?
Themes like addiction, mental illness, intimacy, violence, romantic idealism, spiritual longing, are not treated as aesthetic ornaments but as lived realities, rendered with empathy and without sentimentality. Even when the stories turn bloody or dark, beauty has not been abandoned, just complicated. This tension between lyricism and violence, humor and despair, eros and accountability is what makes Gretchen’s writing defy easy categorization.
But I Digretch includes diverse LGBTQIA+ characters and themes that feel integrated into the narrative rather than tokenistic. These inclusions are naturally woven into the fabric of the stories, providing a sense of inclusivity without forcing the reader to confront identity as an “issue.” For LGBTQIA+ readers, this can be particularly meaningful, while for general readers, it offers an opportunity to engage with different perspectives.
Gretchen is also at work on an upcoming collection of transcendental surrealist love poetry, expanding her exploration of inner, unseen worlds and the sacred thread that unites all beings in love.
Poetry may be the prime allusive vehicle that uses the finite medium of words to reveal an infinite realm of sympathetic resonance and vibrational frequencies (we’ve come to know as the human experience) that lie beyond what words can ever capture. Swami Bodhananda: “Words are always the signifier and never the signified.” No one has ever gotten wet by the word “water” nor burned by the word “fire” and yet each word conjures an infinity of possibilities in one’s imagination, each as valid and unique as the imaginer. May Gretchen Astro’s fires and oceans inside be whatever you need them to be. Her only prayer is that her poems and prose offer you time spent loving, as if kissed by God HimSelf/HerSelf/ItSelf/YourSelf.
Debut Collection
Books
But I Digretch
But I Digretch is Gretchen Astro Turner’s debut collection of short fiction, exploring the peaks and valleys of the human experience, offering fascinating insights about life and love through a psychological lens. The collection appeals to both dreamers and realists, those who embrace life’s mysterious unpredictability and those seeking deeper meaning in metaphor, symbolism, and philosophical contemplations that probe the human psyche in the perennial search for truth.
Gretchen welcomes you into a world of quirk, cleverness, and wordplay, of digressions and soliloquy, but in a way that is emotionally immersive and psychologically attuned, mirroring consciousness itself — playful, unexpected, non-linear, wounded, associative, searching, full of possibility.
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Reader Reflections
Thoughts and reflections from readers who connected deeply with the stories.
Debut Author
Gretchen Astro Turner
Enthralled by the glimmer that breathes under fresh ashes of burnt conversation;
uncontainably anxious to hang my sighs on the lines of your imagination...
A line from Gretchen’s upcoming book of surrealist transcendental love poetry capturing the essence infusing this collection of short stories: It may be invisible, but there is an exuberant cord of life and love on which meaning and beauty hang, like bikinis and swimtrunks rinsed of seasalt when the sun goes down … the sun, a Nilla wafer dunked in the milky horizon line.
But I Digretch began as a quiet invitation to notice the emotions we rarely say out loud, and to honor the infinite, indescribable beauty hidden inside ordinary lives. Each story grew from moments of reflection, resilience, healing, and indefatigable faith in beauty and love, shaped by the small choices that subtly transform who we become.
These stories do not offer tidy answers: Instead, they open gentle doorways. Gretchen’s hope is that readers recognize pieces of themselves in these pages and feel accompanied, reminded that even in uncertainty, there is connection, light, and a shared human grace.
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Musings
Prose, poetry, essays, film & TV show reviews, and moments drawn from the interior energy field of life — that sit with feeling, intuition, and authenticity, rather than explain it.
Your Piss Is My Chardonnay
Your piss is my chardonnayYour French Kiss became my graveYou loved my misbehaviorAnd I know you hate to leave But I don’t see you stopping your go-go goingAnd you’re going to miss my strip teaseI challenge your desires the world overto find lines that can love you like these But
G-Force Cartoon Closures
G-Force Cartoon Closures I guess this flatline … is for me to skate away onAnd now I need a spacesuit in my home because it’s suddenly somewhere in outer spaceand I can barely breatheOr the tube to my regulator has knotted up when making it through this moment
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Reflections, readings, and updates from Gretchen Astro Turner, shared with intention and heart.
Stay Connected
Reflections, readings, and updates from Gretchen Astro Turner, shared with intention and heart.